"Our life
together is so precious together. We have grown, we have grown. Although our
love is still special, let's take a chance and fly away somewhere alone. It's
been too long since we took the time. No one's to blame; I know time flies so
quickly. But when I see you darling, it's like we both are falling in love
again. It'll be just like starting over, starting over. Why don't we take off
alone, take a trip somewhere far, far away? We'll be together all alone again,
like we used to in the early days. Don't let another day go by my love, it'll be just like starting over, starting over."
Epilogue
The newly fallen snow on
the ground squished under our shoes.
He held my hand as we
walked.
Even though I knew how
sad this was going to be, I couldn’t help but smile.
I had everything now.
We stopped in front of
the familiar headstones.
Well, almost everything.
"Hey
Deb." I
run my gloved hand over her engraved name.
Still clutching my hand,
Brian remains quiet.
I clear my throat. I had
so much to tell her.
"Well Deb, here we
are. The Brian and Justin show. Back with a vengeance."
I hear Brian snort next to me. I squeeze his hand.
"You’d be proud Deb.
I started school again. I’m going to be a teacher. I’m still painting. I’ll
never stop that. And Brian and I-" I look at him and his eyes shift from
the ground up to look at me. He smirks.
"-we have a house
now. In
"We even started to
buy furniture." I shift my weight from one foot to another and scratch my
head.
"Gus and I got to
spend a lot of time together while he was here on his visit. He’s such a great
kid. They left a few days ago to go back to
"I’m finally happy
Deb. It took...god...it took almost 15 years but I’m finally where I belong.
This is it Deb. It's forever this time. I’m not going anywhere ever again. I’m
sorry it took so long…" I start to sob instantly, tears streaming down my
face. Brian’s arm goes around my shoulder and pulls me close to him.
"I feel like it took
me forever to get here." I repeat the same words I said to her just a few
short weeks ago when I came to see her. When I saw Brian
again for the first time in 10 years. I look up at Brian. At my future. At my life.
"You're right. She
would be proud." He whispers in my ear. I nod into him, letting the tears
fall. He smiles as he wraps both arms around me.
"You have anything
you wanna say before we go?" I ask gently. He
pulls back and stares at Deb and Vic’s grave. He rolls his tongue in his cheek
and I rub his chest through his leather jacket.
He lets out a huge sigh
and I watch as his breath glides into the cold January air.
"Deb…I….FUCK." He kneels down in front of Deb’s
grave.
"I’m happy
too." I hear him whisper softly and he lays his palm against her name.
He stands and returns his
arm around my shoulders.
"And Vic, I hope
your having the time of your life, wherever the hell you are. I’m sure you are.
You always could find a way to have a good time anywhere." I smile and
lean into him.
He clears his throat and
closes his eyes. "I miss you both." He says forcefully and then looks
away. I know how hard this was for him. Brian Kinney doesn’t visit people’s
graves. Brian Kinney doesn’t tell people he misses them. Well unless it’s me.
Brian Kinney thinks its bullshit to ‘talk’ to people like this.
Well Brian Kinney used to think and not to do a lot of things.
Just then his cell phone
cries in his pocket and he fumbles his leather-covered fingers in his jacket to
find it. He smirks, as he see’s the caller id.
"Yes, mother of my
spawn?" He balances the phone on his shoulder as he reaches inside his
pocket for a cigarette.
I laugh and kneel down to
arrange the daisy’s I had brought for Deb on her grave.
"What the fuck are
you talking about?" He lights his cigarette and takes a long drag.
I stand back up and stare
at him questionably.
"You’re his mother.
Tell him no."
Long
drag. Eyes
widen.
"I told him no. I
told him no fucking way!"
I touch his arm. Oh god.
What happened?
"How is this my fucking problem? Go find him."
His face turns white and
his mouth drops open and ever so gently, he snaps his cell phone shut.
He is silent and he
brings his lips into his mouth and closes his eyes.
"Brian? What’s
wrong?"
He shakes his head and
lets out a low moan. He drops his cigarette butt onto the ground and stubs it
out with his expensive Prada shoe.
"Brian?"
He opens his eyes and
looks at me and shrugs.
"Gus ran away. He
told Linds and Mel he didn’t want to live there
anymore. He told them he wanted to live with me and they told him absolutely
not and he took off."
"Oh
my god Brian!
Are they looking for him? Jesus!"
"No need. They know
where he is." He runs his fingers through his hair and grabs it,
frustrated.
"They do? Where?"
He drops his hands to his
sides and lets out an exhausted sigh.
"On
a bus. Headed here."
***